I don't know why I have avoided writing on this particular topic. I guess to me it is a typical and cliché topic in the church, but for some reason I am led to write on it. I know the captivity of sexual urges and strange emotions of perversion too well. Even in the church many struggle in secret. I have come to realize that some teach to accept sexual urges and strange feelings as a part of our 'humanity'. However, how then does one minister to a Christian who struggles with homosexual urges and thoughts? Should that one accept that as a part of their humanity also?

I think a good tell tale sign that something is wrong is that our conscience convicts us when we have these urges. The only reason we even say we 'struggle' with sexual urges is because we are fighting against it. However if it is simply a part of our humanity, or if it is simply proof we are alive, why does our conscience still condemn us for it? Why do we seek counsel to get rid of them?

We must admit that there is something in us that tells us that these urges ought not to be. In my experience in church and as a minister, this is one of the most questioned topics among the youth. I however want to give hope in this area of the Christian life, which seems to be so taboo.

In this post I will be going straight to the point, that you may see and understand how to overcome these emotions forever and never struggle again. Many people say that everyone struggles with sexual emotions, but that is a lie, God always has a remnant unto Himself to prove His word.

First of all we must agree the GOD IS SIMPLE. In face He is very simple. He is so simple He becomes a mystery to many. I will deal with this at the root

"NOBODY IS PERFECT/ONCE WE ARE IN THESE BODIES YOU WILL SIN"

I have come to know that the teaching of this doctrine has such a powerful stronghold on the people of God. THIS DOCTRINE IS A GREAT LIE! The reason I must go here, for us to understand how to be freed from sexual urges is because we must see the effect that this doctrine has on us.

Well we came from the bondage of sin having received the Holy Ghost, only to hear that because we are not perfect we will one day return to it. We came into this great salvation only to hear that we are the dogs the scripture speaks of that will one day return to his vomit. Sons of God, but dogs. Why? - Because nobody is perfect, and once we are in these bodies we will one day sin.

We have to look at the implications of this doctrine. Let us not measure sin, all sin is sin and is on the same level. With that said, we have to look at what we imply when we preach once we are in these bodies we will always sin. What we actually imply is when the murderer is saved, because he is never actually free from sin, it is a great possibility that he will return to murdering. The rapist will always rape, the liar will always lie. The harlot will always sell herself short. We preach a hopeless gospel.

Anyway, getting back on track here, when we preach that one day we will sin, the effect it will have on the people is that they will eventually allow sin in their lives. This creates such instability. Have you ever been to a church, and notice the people are faithful to church work but when you entertain the church mothers, they are mean and full of gossip. The young men are flirts, and the young women are lascivious. The pastors, may be after money and the things of this world.

What else is there to hope for when all you hear is that one day you will sin anyway. One day you will fall. What do you preach, how do you prevent people falling away from the church and losing faith in Christianity? The truth is you can't once this doctrine is preached. The only thing will create a powerful church is the preaching of the truth with true demonstrations of the power of God. Automatically I know where our minds went with that one. But when I said the power of God, right there I was not speaking to signs and wonders even though they are technically included, but the greatest power of God, is holiness.

God is able to make any man holy and keep him holy.

Jud 1:24
Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy,

God is not shy about this matter. He professes the power to keep us holy and spotless until we see His face. It is only if we have allowed Him to do this will we see His face in peace.

The point I make here is that we must change our perspective. If we believe that we must sin someway or somehow, then we will allow ourselves to think wrong and then we will make provision to sin. However what we will find is that our conscience will never agree with sin. We will always feel condemned when we sin. Why because it is no longer our nature to sin. We are of a divine nature and a divine nature only. We were created perfect and God gave us the ability to never sin again

The doctrine Nobody is Perfect is more commonly called the doctrine of Dual Nature. I discuss that doctrine more in depth in my post The Gift to the World, explaining the scriptures used in defence of the doctrine and explaining them in context go check it out.

With that said.

Mat 5:48
Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect.

The reality of salvation is that it enables us to walk in holiness even as Jesus did. After all He is within us. We tend to blame our flesh as the reason for our sins. But there are a couple things that we fail to realize.

Firstly we forget that the body is inanimate without the soul. It has no life of its own. It has no feelings nor emotions of its own. The body is a vehicle of expression for the soul. It is the soul that produces emotions and feelings and lusts, and cravings - not the body. For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also (Jam 2:26).

Secondly, we must think about the fact that Jesus was also in a human body. The scriptures let us know that he learned obedience by the things he suffered (Heb 5:8). He was indeed touched with the feeling of our infirmity, he had a human body and yet without sin.

Question
"There must have been something different about his body then, after all He was not born of a man, He was born of God by a virgin - Jesus was God"

Well let us consider this.

Jn 3:3-6
Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. 
4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born? 
5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

The scripture explains something here. It lets us know that in order to be saved we must be born again. It is clear here that when you are born again you are no longer born of flesh and blood but you are born of the Spirit of God. So then let us look at this. At your first birth, you were born of flesh, meaning you came forth from your mother and experienced life. But this second birth is not of a woman, but it is of God. God raises you from the dead at salvation and enters your body, causing it to be reborn. Therefore in order to be born again - both the soul and the body must be reborn.

I am feeling a bit redundant here, I have done a series on Salvation explaining what truly happens at salvation. It is called the Salvation Series. It starts from the garden of Eden and continues up to today's date.
Part 1 - deals with the make up of Adam before his fall. (made perfect and sinless)
Part 2 - deals with the make up of Adam after he sinned (body became sinful and soul held captive)
Part 3 - emphasizes the need to be saved
Part 4 - deals with the make up of Jesus (He had a different body than Adam's even though it was human)
Part 5 - deals with atonement (how Jesus took away our sins)
Part 6 - deals with the death, burial and resurrection of Christ (What happened after Jesus' death and how He was resurrected)
Part 7 - how are we saved? (explaining how Jesus sacrificed made it possible for us to be saved)
Part 8 - deals with the operation of salvation (a step by step outline of what occurs at salvation)

So long and short of it. Parts 1, 2, 4, and 8 would be perfect for you to understand and agree with the rest of this post. The Salvation Series serves as a foundation for most of the posts on this blog.

So lets get on with it.

SEXUAL EMOTIONS

Its no secret that many Christians today struggle with them. Well let us think about this in light of all scriptures

Gal 5:24
And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.

Well the scripture lets us know that if we have the Holy Ghost, our bodies have already been crucified with the lusts of the flesh and unlawful emotions. With that said we can come to three (3) conclusions.

If I am experiencing these urges then it might be a possibility that:

1. I do not have the Holy Ghost.

This may seem harsh, but it is something we ought to all think about. The Holy Ghost gives us the power over sin. He changes our sentiments from one that takes pleasure in sin to one that delights in righteousness. When you are saved your conscience will never agree with sin. You will also find it very difficult to take pleasure in sin (from the heart). However if you are not saved, you are freed from righteousness

Rom 6:19-20
19 I speak after the manner of men because of the infirmity of your flesh: for as ye have yielded your members servants to uncleanness and to iniquity unto iniquity; even so now yield your members servants to righteousness unto holiness.
20 For when ye were the servants of sin, ye were free from righteousness.

Before salvation we had no true knowledge of righteousness until we were taught. Our conscience would only warn us against things we perceived were moral but even our conscience was freed from righteousness. This is why our conscience had to be purged as well at salvation (Heb 9:14).

If one does not have the Holy Ghost the scripture says that there is a law of sin working in their body. When they would do good, evil is present. That when they would want to perform that which is righteous, they cannot because sin works in them. Sin resides in the human bodies of the unsaved, and its purpose is to keep such a one from righteousness. The law of sin produces in the flesh what is called - evil concupiscence, which is an insatiable urge for sin. These cravings cannot be satisfied and hence the soul is held captive by them.

In order for this soul to please God it must be delivered from this body.

Rom 7:24
24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 

He delivers us when he crucified us with him at salvation

Gal 2:20
I am crucified with Christ:nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me:and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

Gal 5:24
And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.

In short. If you do not have the Holy Ghost, you do not have the power over sin. There is a spirit that dwells in your body called the spirit of bondage. The spirit of bondage is the devil. When the devil is in the flesh he dictates the sin he wants to perform through the body. Jesus said it this way.

Jn 8:44
Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do...

If he desires to manifest his lust of homosexuality he will do it through the flesh of the unsaved, and the soul of that particular body can do nothing about it because it is bound. If the devil decides to be a fornicator in the flesh, he will a body to do so. If he decides to be a paedophile he will use the body of a grown man (or woman) to do so. If he decides to be an alcoholic, a rapist, a murderer, a thief, a masturbator, a pimp, if he desires bestiality, whatever sin it is, he will use the body of the unsaved to do it. That is why we all needed Jesus, to be finally set free from sin.

Therefore if you are having strong cravings that go against God's word, it may be that you do not have the Holy Ghost. If you want to be delivered from them, get under God's word and it will purify you and most importantly seek God for the Holy Spirit so that you can be delivered from sin once and for all.

2. I have the Holy Ghost, but do not believe the word of God.

As I said before God is very simple.

This is a biggy here. Let us look at all that God has done at salvation. This is where part 8 of the Salvation Series really kicks in.

Eph 4:22-24
22 That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts; 
23 And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; 
24 And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.

We have put of the old man which is the body of sin. The body we had before salvation, with all its lust and evil concupiscence. And have put on the new man who is made in righteousness and true holiness.

The new man is the Holy Spirit in the flesh. The new man is Jesus Christ. Let me say it one more time. JESUS IS IN THE FLESH. This same body that we often blame for sin, it is actually Jesus'. It is the place He lives. Jesus is a human again by way of our bodies. So then we cannot blame the bodies, because they are holy. What then is the problem?

Jam 1:13-14
13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God:for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man:
14 But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.

It is not our bodies that tempt us to sin, the bodies have no power of their own and it is God who has them alive by His presence within them. The nature of the body is determined by the spirit that is in it. When we were unsaved the nature of the body was sinful and devilish, but now that we are saved the body has a divine nature, because it is born of God.

Therefore in a practical sense, it is not the body that produces these urges and temptations we feel. The body is simply a vessel! But it is the soul that creates his own lust. Our souls are the real us. The scripture says that when we are tempted to sin, it is because the soul considered sin and agreed with the suggestion of sin. In other words, sin enticed the soul.

Here the power of the gospel is revealed

Pro 23:7
7 For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he...

This is strongly grounded in the concept of belief. Let me say this off the bat, belief is not a hard task as some make it to be. In fact it is quite simple. Also there are no levels of believe, it is either we believe or we do not. Our thoughts are at the root of our beliefs. In fact it is our thoughts and actions that serve as proof of our beliefs.

As a man thinketh so is he. If the soul believes or thinks that he is a Son of God trapped in a body of sin, then he will begin to struggle with sin. He will develop his own sin to be tempted with. He will produce emotions in his flesh and begin to fight against them.

However if one believes that he is a son of God, and free from sin by the new man, then that is exactly what he will experience - Freedom.

The mind is a powerful thing. The root of all sin, is wrong thinking.

When I believe the Word that says that all the lusts of the flesh have already been crucified with Christ, then I can rest in assurance that this body is not sinful and will not betray me by sinning against me.

Rom 8:15
For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

God doesn't want us fearing sin, so he didn't give us the spirit of the devil with the law of sin and death again. He gave us the Holy Spirit - a sinless Spirit. He placed the Holy Ghost within our flesh, now it cannot sin (1 John 3:9). Now if our souls desire sin, we will use our bodies to do so, but in doing so we actually sin against our body because our bodies are now of a divine nature.

1Co 6:18
Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 

We must believe the word. We are already free. We do not have to pray and fast for it. We have to believe that we have already received our freedom. It is a state of being. But it is because of what we have learnt and believe have caused us to believe that we could never be free. Let us free ourselves from that mindset. This is more than a declaration this is a matter of reality. Now we live in the Spirit (Gal 5:25). Let us not confuse ourselves to think that we are always bound to sin. We are indeed free.

There is such power in unbelief. Unbelief plagues many who may struggle with homosexuality in the church. The devil wants us to believe it is more complex than simply our belief in what Christ has already done in us. But this is the simplicity of God! He have you Jesus Christ that you might never have to sin again. If you believe and have the Holy Ghost the root of the problem is found in the third possibility.

3. I have the Holy Ghost, but I desire sin.
This is very plain. Sin is something we desire as sons, it is not something that is sprung upon us. As a man thinketh so is he. If we are tempted we are drawn away by our own lust and enticed. We must deal with the root here. To truly be free from these sexual urges we must deal with the fact that we desire unlawful sex.

These feelings are produced by the soul and experienced by the flesh. It is after we produce these feelings we then begin trying to fight against them. But if we are totally honest here we will say that the only reason there is a fight is because a part of us really wants to experience the pleasure of sex. The fight isn't against the fact that my body is getting aroused, but it is against the fact that at the moment I want to use my body to have sex.

Without a doubt the devil is real. He has the ability to tempt us, with suggestions. However for a set of people that love to step on him and trample on him all day we give him too much power. That is the extent of his power against us. He can merely suggest that we do something, whether we do it or not is based on our desires.

Consider Jesus.

Mat 4:2-4
2 And when he had fasted forty days and forty nights, he was afterward an hungred. 
3 And when the tempter came to him, he said, If thou be the Son of God, command that these stones be made bread. 
4 But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.

The devil came tempting Jesus from the outside (he was not inside of him) and suggesting that he eat. Note that Jesus was hungry however His in his heart he was repulsed by the thought of obeying the devil. He knew that was sin and he should only obey the words from the mouth of God. At that moment Jesus could have decided that he was hungry and said, to himself "well, its not sin to be hungry and my fast is already up, let me do it". (Thank God He didn't) He rather, did not allow the suggestions of the devil to entice him. He did not allow what the devil said to incite lust in him. He was not enticed by his words. This is our example

When the devil brings suggestions to our mind, we must never agree with him. We must be repulsed by what is not godly. But we must hate sin before the suggestion comes, in order to manifest Christ. We must be in fellowship and agreement with God.

If I am tempted with sexual urges, it is because I have come to a place where I am not in agreement with God's will for sex. At that moment I want sex outside of marriage and am in disagreement with God and his will that says sex is within the boundaries of marriage.

This is the root of it all - disagreement with God. I must agree with God's will and way in order to manifest Christ. This is not a hard thing either. It is the delights of our heart to do so.

The devil fights us in our minds. He doesn't want us to believe how easy it is to be free from sin. We simply need to accept what God already did for us at salvation. It doesn't matter what we have done and for how long after we were saved, the moment we accept this truth and walk in it, you will come to know the power of it.

Rom 1:16
For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ:for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.

This salvation is powerful. If you believe it. You have put on the new man who is Jesus Christ in the flesh. He is in you for this very reason. Walking holy is simply a choice that we all must agree to do, this is love in God's eyes (John 14:15).

We must purify our hearts from all unlawful desires we may have and then believe the scripture. IT IS WHEN WE BELIEVE THE POWER OF GOD WILL BE LOOSED WITHIN US.

As a man thinketh so is he.

When you think of yourself, see a holy son of God in whom God dwells, who has already overcome sin. When tempted of the devil simply say no and tada, you have a sinless life.

I love you, truly.
- Kareem Flowers
An apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ.

(In part 2 we will really go into the operation of the spirit of suicide, stay tuned for it. The knowledge of its operation will truly help you to be delivered from it.)

Suicide in the church is a topic that I don't hear spoken about much. It seems to be just so saddening that people just give heavy sighs and try not to think about it. Some of us begin preaching in our heads, the love and grace and joy that is found in Christ, wishing they knew. Suicide altogether is a really grievous reality. We must know that there is a real devil out there, seeking whom he might devour. He is a minister and the father of lies. He was a murderer from the beginning and today he remains the same. He is attempting to murder us all, one way or the other and he will use our own hands to do it

I just want to say, that if you are someone that is struggling with suicide, find hope in God. The devil may say to you that there is no hope for you. That you will be better off dead. That no one loves you and that you should have never been born. But Jesus Christ, the true son of God, died on the cross for your life. He loves you and is able to keep you in great joy and contentment, if you allow Him to. You may not even believe in Him, but I pray that you consider Him today. You were thought of by God even before the world was formed. He knew you, He knew your life, He knew your heart - He loved you and still does. He desired to see you born, to live to see this far. He however desires your life. He wants you to love Him back even as He has loved you. Get to know Him, ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Meet your maker. When you truly get to know Him you will see the brighter side of all your troubles and then you will really understand what love is.

When the devil speaks to us, he wears a mask, so we don't know that it is him. He will say 'I' when he ought to say 'you' so you think that you are the one thinking, but the reality is that he is speaking to us. For example he will say, 'I am the worst', instead of 'you are the worst'. When we hear it we think that its our thoughts, but no, it is the ministry of satan to our minds. Learn how to discern his voice, and always disagree with him when he speaks. He will never speak something that will lead you to God and to life.

You will also notice, that whenever the devil ministers, he will never remind you of the reality of hell. Anyone that commits suicide is going to hell. He just makes you think that the other side is greener. But its not, its redder. It is a place that has been created to torture him and his demons, however, humans that follow in his steps will go there too. There is rarely repentance for suicide. There are cases where Jesus has resurrected persons who committed suicide, but there is no guarantee that he will. There are many more cases that he didn't. This post is a warning here on the earth to you, because there is no repentance in hell.

There is hope for everyone on the earth. The scripture lets us know that people perish because they lack knowledge. It is the knowledge of God that enables you to love Him. Jesus died, went to hell for 3 days and nights so you wouldn't have to. He then rose from the dead, so that you can have life, not just any life, but His life. Accept Him and He will transform you into Love, and you will become His child. You will see as He sees and know as He knows as it pertains to your life.

If you already have the Holy Spirit, and are struggling with this spirit of suicide. Please I pray that you read this post. It will help you to overcome, you however have to agree with it. You will have to come to terms with the mind of God, and how He views your life. If you settle with the Word, it will produce in you righteousness, peace and joy.

SUFFERING IS A COMMANDMENT GIVEN TO ALL BORN AGAIN BELIEVERS
(Read Discerning Your Suffering blog post)

1Pe 2:19-25
19 For this is thankworthy, if a man for conscience toward God endure grief, suffering wrongfully. 
20 For what glory is it, if, when ye be buffeted for your faults, ye shall take it patiently? but if, when ye do well, and suffer for it, ye take it patiently, this is acceptable with God. 
21 For even hereunto were ye called:because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that ye should follow his steps:
22 Who did no sin, neither was guile found in his mouth:
23 Who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to him that judgeth righteously:
24 Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness:by whose stripes ye were healed. 
25 For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepherd and Bishop of your souls.

There are many reasons why someone would come to a place of suicide. Most of the time suicide starts with depression. Depression comes from a disagreement with what God allows to take place in one's life. It can also stem from a disagreement with the consequences of our own actions. However nevertheless, everything that happens in the life of a son of God, is allowed of God, for His glory.

The Father seeks to comfort us greatly, and indeed has with this scripture.

1Co 10:13
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man:but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

There is nothing that comes our way that we cannot bear, through Christ, even our consequences. When we agree with God for the suffering and the route he has taken us, we will experience such peace and contentment.

AGREEMENT WITH GOD IS THE KEY TO HAPPINESS - AGREEMENT IS OF THE HEART

That is the liberty of being a son of God. All it takes is agreement with the will and way that God has for our lives and He will be a comfort to our souls. If He allows certain things to happen, seek Him for His wisdom, let Him lead you and guide you into how you are to make decisions. However in the midst of it, He is sufficient to keep you emotionally stable.

The Discerning Your Suffering blog post, is excellent in getting you to see God's plan for our lives, and teaching us how to embrace the sufferings we face, no matter how tough they may be.

Many times I would get depressed because of what would randomly happen in my life, but my depression was based on my own failures. Sometimes even the consequences of my failures would haunt me. Nevertheless the scripture still remains true. If God has given me a consequence I can bear it, if I agree with the consequence itself. I must agree with the manner in which God chooses to discipline me, because He is fighting to save my soul. He knows us, and He knows what is necessary to discipline us. He will cause us to suffer greatly if it means that our souls will be saved by it.

Rom 8:28
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Also, the scripture lets us know that if we suffer for our wrongs, take it patiently. But, even as we take it patiently the love of Christ will be there to keep us in perfect peace. What an awesome God.

SUICIDE FROM GOD'S EYES

I just want to write an experience I had one day. One day I was very depressed, and I was on the verge of suicide. I am and have always been afraid of hell though so I would have never thought to go all the way to kill myself. However on this particular day, I went as far as to truly consider killing myself. Immediately I had a vision. I saw Jesus in me, with a knife to his throat. He then said to me, suicide is the murder of Christ.

I got instantly frightened and delivered from that thought that even suggested that I would kill Christ. One may wonder what did God mean when He said suicide is the murder of Christ?

Well lets look at the scriptures.
(It would be good to read the Setting the Perspective of Christianity blog post, or part 8 of the Salvation Series.)

Gal 2:20
I am crucified with Christ:nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me:and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

The scripture lets us know that the life we live in the flesh it is not us that live but its Christ that lives in us. This basically means that Jesus is in our bodies, and living his life through them.

Rom 8:8-9
8 So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.
9 But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.

They that are in the flesh that verse 8 speaks of are the unsaved. People who have not received the Holy Spirit. Verse 9 outlines the make up of a believer.

BELIEVER
- Not in the flesh
- In the Spirit
- The Spirit is in them

In other words. The soul of a believer is not inside of their flesh directly, but it is inside of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit however is inside of their bodies. They therefore look like this.


Jesus is therefore in the flesh, He has therefore become a human again by being in our bodies.
The scripture says that we have put off the old man and put on the new man.

Eph 4:22-24
22 That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts; 
23 And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; 
24 And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.

The new man is Jesus Christ

Gal 3:27
For as many of you as have been baptized into Christ have put on Christ.

The new man is our bodies with the Holy Spirit within it. The new man is Jesus Christ in the flesh. Therefore this is how you literally are.




We are in the body of Christ. This is so literal.

1Co 6:15
Know ye not that your bodies are the members of Christ? shall I then take the members of Christ, and make them the members of an harlot? God forbid.

If we commit fornication we are using Jesus' body to do so. Our bodies are no longer ours, they belong to Christ.

Eph 5:30-32
30 For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones. 
31 For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh. 
32 This is a great mystery:but I speak concerning Christ and the church.

Now that we understand that we are in Jesus Christ let us consider this scripture

Rom 5:10
For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.

Our souls will only be saved if we allow the life of Christ to live through us, however if we commit suicide we kill the life of Christ. He is in our bodies to live through us, and he is touched with the feelings of our infirmity. He knows our lives, he knows the temptation because he is in us and is touched with the same trials. However he is not going to sin, and because you are in Him you do not have to sin either. He is willing to live your life, pleasing the Father. However, when we disagree with God's will and way, we usurp our authority over Christ that is within us and use His body to do our own will. If we commit suicide we will end the life that Christ intended to live through our flesh, thus we would be murders of Christ.

Consider this scripture

Act 9:1-4
1 And Saul, yet breathing out threatenings and slaughter against the disciples of the Lord, went unto the high priest, 
2 And desired of him letters to Damascus to the synagogues, that if he found any of this way, whether they were men or women, he might bring them bound unto Jerusalem. 
3 And as he journeyed, he came near Damascus:and suddenly there shined round about him a light from heaven:
4 And he fell to the earth, and heard a voice saying unto him, Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me?

Saul (Paul) had been persecuting the saints of God. Jesus made it known that He was the one that Saul had been persecuting. He had been murdering the Christians, but because it was Jesus who was in the flesh, when a soldier would murder them, they would murder Christ. That is why Saul was so distressed when he came to the knowledge of salvation. He realized that as he murdered Christians he was a murderer of Christ.

However in that case, when he murdered those Christians, the life of Christ was complete according to the will of God and they were killed as a testimony of their faithfulness to Christ. However in the case of suicide, Christ is not yet finished with the flesh, and we end his life prematurely. When we commit suicide we become even as Saul, a murder of Christ.

I struggled with suicidal thoughts for a long while, but when I came to the knowledge of this, I never struggled again. I don't even consider it any more. Even though life may get tough. If I agree with my sufferings for Christ's sake, and patiently endure my wrongs, in the end both God and I will be glorified. For to suffering for Christ sake and to receive my reward in the millennium is the hope of my calling.

A Prayer
     Father, you see and you know the situations that are happening in this individual's life. You are all knowing and you love greatly. I pray in the name of Jesus, that your love will be felt by them. Let your light shine in their hearts and deliver them from the haunting of the devil. Father, show them your perspective of life, and keep them from death. Lord let your spirit shine in their lives. Let your love consume every fibre of their being. I pray directly for the situation, I pray that you will sort out every issue according to your will. You are love and you work all things out for our good. So give comfort in your will and put a smile on the broken hearted.

- With love
Apostle Kareem Flowers.

Good Morning Father,

I am so honoured and privileged to be able to speak with you again. I am still dumbfounded by your love that never seems to end. I want my life to always honour and unfold with love for you. Father I come before you with petitions this morning. Keep me steadfast in you. Don't allow my mind to fool me and take me outside of your boundaries. I appreciate your uncanning love for me. It gives me hope in life. Lord open my eyes this week. I want to see you in a new light. Make me as your pillars. Make me into a rock. Not wavering when times arise, but of a sure foundation. Make me an example that I would want to follow. As I submit my life to you, and I offer my heart in trust. Make me please you.

I have given you all things that pertaineth to life and goliness. As ye have received Christ walk ye in Him.

Yes Lord. Christ is strong! He is the new man. He is made awesomely and fearfully and wonderfully. My soul knoweth of the works you have performed in me. I am made unto your honour and unto your glory.

You know Lord I am seeing the power of unbelief. It is so potent. As a man thinketh surely so is he. If I think that I am Christ I will manifest Christ. This is the purpose of you coming anyway. And you speak boldly to the nations that if any man denies this truth, he shall be called an unbeliever. Whosoever believeth shall not perish but have everlasting life.

My life is surely in your hands.

Well, God.
Walk with me today. I will watch your works today, as I have been. I will give you an experience. Delight in my soul today and with all those who read. Bless them entirely. Bless them with yourself.

Good Morning Father,

What wonderful rest you gave me last night. I greatly appreciate it. God you have allowed me to see the real operation of things. In order for people to work with they must be honest, and that is absent. God don't let your people fall away because of sin. Don't let the devil trap people because of want. Father free your people in the name of Jesus from the captivity of the devil.

Do you remember where I took you from?

Yes Lord, I do

I am a God that can do all things

You surely can. God I am looking at the operation of the devil in the lives of your people

This is where you need to put on your strength and bear the sins of others. Can you look past the sin and see the spirit behind the actions?

Yes Lord I can

Then love unconditionally

Wow, God I just felt a release. God what do I then do. You see the operation.

Wait on me, I will deal with it.

So you are saying don't make any rash moves?

Rest

Ok Lord, I will give you your time to work. I am sorry if I may have overstepped your leadership and had become self-righteous. Thank you for watching for me.

Lord I just want to say, you are lovely and marvellous. The angels bow before you. The earth knows of your splendour. I worship you with all of my being. For you are God and worthy to be worshipped and adored. There is none liken unto you. My tongue could never tell of your works and majesty.

God I pray you reveal yourself to me today. Set in order your day. Walk through me. I will be watching for you today. I will honour my conscience, for He is the life of Jesus in me.

God I want to know that I am always in the right

Then stay humble and sober, watch and listen for me. You have seen the power of it. I will manifest through you if you do so, that you may behold my glory. 

Lord I think its splendid how you are just so near to me. I feel your strength. Now God pour out even more.

Remember KS and KD, Lord draw them to the spirit, save their souls. Lord remember JD and XL, you see the captivity, win their hearts.

God I trust you in the lives of your people.

God I feel it strong on my heart to do a revival/conference. Lead me into your truth. Let me do your will and not my own. Don't let me move under my own power.

Wow, God!

You were serious when you said wait on me. As in I just watched your wisdom deal with it right before my eyes. You are awesome!

Ok I see your mercy, it makes me know you have a reason for him being here, well I am watching for you Lord. Lead me.

I will watch for your wisdom and counsel. I will talk to him about it though. Give me a fresh mind. A mind of yours

I love you

I love you too and I love those that read, bless them all with Yourself. With wisdom, power and might. But mostly bless them with love.

Good Morning Father,

What wonderful sleep I had last night; filled with dreams. One of them really frightened me. I was in America, and ISIS had taken over the whole country. They had troops on every corner with guns ready to kill whomever they would. I experienced such fear. I knew also that because of my Christian faith I would be a target. However I was in a car and you protected me. What really stood out to me though was the fear. I remembered that time when Doc was teaching and she said, we don't know what we will do when we face death or danger.

Lord if I am ever faced with danger of that sort let my heart deny life to glorify you. After all it is the hope of my calling. It is the proof that I have been counted worthy of the Kingdom. It is my entry into heaven. I want to make Jesus stand at your right hand, just because of obedience.

Lord I have been seeing the power of love. Your love is so potent. God you see my heart. You see my love for those that I know. I pray that they all come in alignment with your heart and mind. Lord I want a set of people that will stand for you no matter what. No matter what they are threatened with. No matter what they are tempted with. Let us stand. Let us apply your Word and walk in the Spirit.

I want you to know that I love you and that I have a resolve to please you. Lord give me wisdom. Lord let me walk within my measure and no one else's, not desiring another's ministry. Keep me content with you. Live your life through me. Keep me gentle at all times, and loving and kind.

God there is no one like you. You have awaken me once more. You fellowshipped with me as I rested. You showed me things I ought to consider. Well Lord give me the wisdom to move on in that you  have showed me.

Lord I place today into your hands. Lead and guide me with your Spirit. Show me what I ought to do today and the order in which. Let my life glorify you. I love you.

"Have you ever considered my love for you?"

Well, of course God I always think about your love.

"But have you ever truly considered it? Do you see that I am a patient God?"

Yea God, I see it. You have waited on me all my life. You waited until I came to a point where I truly wanted you. So many things you have been showing me and I am just now obeying. Why do you fight to love me so much.

"You are the good pleasure of My will?" 
"I told you I created you for Me"

Lord maybe I don't understand what you mean when you say that. Show me what you mean.

Hello. You have gone silent on me :). But I feel it in my heart. You will show me as I live on, I will come to an understanding of it.

"Just rest in me, and it will unfold"

Alright Lord, I trust you.

"Do you?"

Yes God I trust you,

"Then why the fear, you know what I am talking about, the fear of failing me. You don't really trust me to keep you. I am a patient God, I have been waiting on your trust for years"

God its hard, I think I have become so trained in unbelief that I miss the simplicity of believing you. But you and your word shows it as easy, so I know it is. But I don't know why I allow myself to try and hold unto righteous after a while, as if you wont keep me. I must be honest though God I have been trusting you more, and I have seen that you are faithful. I have seen your power to keep me. I guess sometimes I just get scared because of all the stories I have heard of people that have left you and left your order, for sin's sake. I don't want that to happen to me

"Well thats why you should trust me, I need you to believe me. It is when you believe that you will see the fruits of Christ within you"

Well God, help my unbelief! Empower me with your love. I will step out on your Faith today. Let the Holy Ghost arise in me.

"I hope you hear the unbelief in that prayer, My Spirit with all its strength is already in you, simply agree with me at all times, and believe me"

Ok God that is what I will do. I will believe you. After all you are God.

Thank you for this God. It really meant alot to me. I feel you searching the depths of my heart. Past what most people see. You see real me. You always keep me in line.

"Go and get ready and go to church"

Ok Lord. Let me just say a prayer for those that might have read this.

"Oh there are some that have read this. You must understand your call Kareem. I have placed this blog in your heart to do my will. This is not about your influence or abilities, but it is My Spirit that flows through you even as you write. Your heart after me allows me to use you, because I will be glorified." 

GOD I JUST NEVER KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME

"Always allow me through you and I will manifest my love for you and for others. Pray always. For yourself and for others. Pray that I move in the lives of the people. Pray for your loved ones, pray for those who oppose you and pray for those you are fearful of and I will anoint you. I will anoint you for ministry, that you might be a spectacle unto the world. For the time has come. Watch for Jesus in you, be sensitive to Him always, and as He increases, ensure that you decrease."

Yes Lord, I always want that to happen. I don't ever wanna get proud. I know I can do nothing without you. I want to always glorify Jesus in my heart

"Then do it, and don't allow lust or pride to steal my glory. You are mine and I created you for Me. So allow me to use you as I deem fit. Stay in your lane."

Lord I love you and I appreciate this. This means so much to me.

"Go get ready"

Lord bless those that read. With love and wisdom, and a heart after you.

Good Morning Father,

Let me become more aware of your presence. Consume me with your love. I want today to be all about you. All I care about is you. My heart attempts to express his great love for you, but words fail. Holy Spirit take free course in my life, and in my heart. Use my mind. As I think about you I am awe struck.

God you are real, and you are amongst us and also in us. Let me see you. Let me see your glory today. I want you to be glorified today. I want you to be the biggest thing of today. I wont speak, unless instructed. I wont think unless instructed. I wont eat unless instructed. I wont do a thing unless you permit. This is your life, let me behold your glory today.

I need you, I need you Lord. You satisfy the longing inside.

Let me become a worshipper and a true praiser. Give the psalmist ministry for your glory. I want to sit and sing unto you. Expressing my heart to you in songs and with humming. The great God expressed in sound. Allow me to bless you today.

I love you, let my grace lead you in all things. Your trust for me is important for fellowship to happen. Do not ever pull away from me in doubt. But trust me, I am your Father and I am in you. I delight in you, you are my delight. I need you.

Wow God.

You love me that much? Lets dance together. My faith shall stand in you. But Lord I will pray today, for real and loose my unction of honour.

Take all the glory and be glorified.

Bless those that read, with spiritual blessings and wisdom today. Give them the intelligence of the Holy Spirit, and cause them to know you even better than before.

Bless them with yourself.

So with all that said Father I just wanted to say
... Good Morning

Sincerely, 
your own.